Re-Set

I need to take stock of where I am with regards to my blog and press a metaphorical re-set button; thinking back over the last year, I didn't really feel like my heart was in it, and I realise that if I'm going to get any benefit from it then I need to be committed - or just not bother. The 'Home' boxes work that I did last year was something I enjoyed immensely, and I was pleased with the end result, but I don't think I recorded the progress enough on my blog. This was partly due to the idea behind it, the with-holding of seeing everything, but I still think I could have shown more.

So, where am I now?

January, the darkest month, has included introspection, contemplation and lots of cosying up with books. A chance to unwind and recharge after the Christmas madness; but I now find myself up against the wall of self-doubt, procrastination and full-on deer-in-the-headlights fear - I have a project to do!

I made a start on it just before Christmas, but because it's had a significant resting period I've lost the momentum, and the idea of re-engaging with the work and moving it on has grown in my head to something almost insurmountable.

This is the kind of problem I need to tackle this year. My fear of things going wrong threatens to stop me doing anything at all.

This is the start of my first image that I sketched out at the end of last year:-

And I have now inked in the outline...it took me weeks longer than it should but it's a start:-

I have a friend who always seems super motivated. She decides to do something and just gets on doing it without any kind of agonising as far as I can tell. I really need to apply a bit of this attitude to myself and stop over-thinking things, just get on with doing my creating, and enjoying doing it.

I'm going to try different approaches to the blog (not sure what yet) to see if I can free myself up a bit. Get more words and thoughts out there. I think I'd started to feel a bit self-conscious, but the original motivation for starting it in the first place was to record my thoughts and my progress for myself. I am hoping to get back to this original plan.

So it's a new year, new green shoots are showing in my garden, and ideas are growing in my head. The page has turned and a new chapter begins.

Amanda xxx